Housing Dismay

WOW, I have one more month in the shelter. I am 8th on a list in getting into a brand new one bedroom in a new building...which is now fulland 27th in another building!

My "housing counselor" says that they will put me into a "market value" studio and pay all expenses until I can get into a subsidized housing! Uh huh.

I'll half believe all this while, I appeal my disability claim. Worse case scenario... I am back on the streets and will head for the beach! I'll be a beach bum all summer!

Meanwhile I am supposed to look for part time work. Uh huh, hello "Monster, Career Builder, Net Temps, and Craig's List"!

Meanwhile, I am still amazed at all the flowering spring plants blooming, even roses! And I chuckle at the snow storms in NY and Michigan! I don't think I can ever live in the rust belt again!

Nice!

Wow, what a nice three day weekend. It got up to 60F+, and sunny. Very nice not to have rain...everyday.

I am kind of getting bored. Nothing changes...nothing bad, nor exteamly good happens. Each day seems to run into the next, like mist wispering through the forest.

Dew happens!

OMG, I am a Senior Citizen and Handicapped

Yeah baby, I got my "Honored Citizen Card" that allowes me to get a monthly bus pass for $23. It covers the buses, light rale, trolly, and tram! I'll be a traveling man now!

The SS denied my claim of disability, geeze two years before 62! I'll be appealing and getting a lawyer since they didn't take any xrays or even see the old ones to make their determination. My current doctor will be on my side, and took xrays. I also have documentation for my disability to get housing! Just more crap to go through.......oh well, the back pay check will just be bigger.

The govenment thinks I am OK to work all day in extream pain. Sure, no problem....I've been doing it for the last 4 years or more, unfortunately it keeps getting worse. My current doc want me to have a full body MRI, and well surgery, but they won't do it without insurance! I am not sure I want anyone opening up my spine!

Anyway, Sunday and Monday may be sunny and in the low 70'sF!

Day by Day

Ahhhhhhh, another day, another donut. Actually "Krispy Kream" last weekend!

Lots of walking, but the sun is out and its in the mid 50'F.

OMG, I gained 8 #s the last three weeks, due to the fantastic suppers volunteers have cooked! One, stir fry, I had three helpings! Oink, oink!

Still looking for housing and part time work. Life is boring, but I am not bored! Getting lots of reading done...three books+ per week, even have branched out to non-fiction, "Cosmology" and history.

Time is running out, can't blog from the shelter. I hope to go to the coast in March or April!

Food for Thought

I got to cook for 95 staff and residents at the shelter Saturday night.

I made lemon pepper chicken, spicy garlic baby back ribs, and pork chops. for sides, I had applesauce, buttered egg noodles, and corn.

No one died, and many thought it was good. There was none leftover!

I'll do it again if the shelter gets me some food to work with and the time. They asked for a "cook" at 3:30 PM, with dinner at 7:00 PM...........all the meat was frozen!

Whats up? Not Much!

This is pretty much the view today!


OK here it is almost the end of January. The Superbowl is set. The economy is tanking as I predicted, yea, two years later than predicted, but tanking none-the-less.

It's cold and sunny today....well its 34F which for the NW is cold. Bah, it's nothing.....and, it's not raining!

Job market is getting tight here..like it wasn't already. Layoffs locally are increasing.....daily. Yet $500,000 condos keep getting built. Some are even being rented as apartments.....for $1850/mo!

Do I really care? No not really. I have food, shelter, clothes. Even when I last worked full time (32+ hrs/wk), I didn't make enough to live and pay all my bills on time, so the lack of income or money is meaningless. Oh well.

Time to write another blog, in another blog.

Ohhh, the Agony & Pain

Yeah that darn Neurologist made me move body parts in ways they haven't moved in years. Two days later I can barely move & feel like an old man!

The really strange part is that he never saw my previous x-rays or made any attempt to take new ones or an MRI......so I am pretty sure I am being set up for rejection! Uh huh. One good part he got to hear my neck bones crack and grind, something I hear every time I move.

I am getting annoyed at "the rules"...I don't like being told what to do at age 59..HELLO? Lights out, lights on, TV on, TV off, chores this, chores that, etc. Total BS!

Yippie, Next Week a Neurologist Exam

Gee, I get to go to a neurologist next week to check on the arthritis's progress pinching my spinal column and find out about my hip problem.....it's pretty hard climbing stairs!

Perhaps the damp weather here aggravates it.....since it is raining again! Duh!

OMG, I am pain again today and that is after my daily 500 mg Naproxin. Of course I have walked about 20 blocks to find a branch library and cross the river bridge. A bus pass would be nice!

Some dumb ass in the shelter coughed....like hacking up a lung......all night long. I said to someone he needs to go to the hospital. They claim he just came back. Several suggested putting him out of his misery with a pillow! Yes, he was that annoying!

Another day, another donut!

SSDI ............Mandatory Psych Exam

I am pretty sure my shrink went to his own, after my visit!

Do I hear voices? Was I abused? (DUH!) Do I abuse drugs and alcohol? Is a 12 pack pr week abuse? Uh huh.

I tell him my main problem is my arthritis in my neck and back....pain in my back and hips. How long can I stand or sit........."er, about 1 hour?" hey I can stand all day, sit all day, walk all day.......but I am in severe pain all day!

Some days when I worked in the bookstore 8 hours, with an hour for lunch, 90 minutes each way on the bus.....so basically I was gone from my house for 12 hours! I could barely move and walk the last two blocks from the bus stop home...........OMG! Ouch.

So he asked and tested my memory, asked about my 14+ years of depression/anxiety since I first began treatment, asked about sleeping, eating, weight loss....215# in August 2006 to 174 now! Blah, blah, blah.

Quite strange.

Happy Friggen New Year!

Another year.......how many more can there be? It's depressing to think there may be 40, if I live to 100.....oh, kill me now! Screw that. No wonder I have DNR on my drivers license!

I don't see too much happening in 2008. I'll get a job, or a disability check. Hey, maybe I'll even get my money for my Monte Carlo I sold last July 3rd, 2007. I'll be homeless or I'll get a subsidized apartment. I'll be in the NW, or I'll be some place else. Big woop!

I hope they record the asteroid hitting Mars the end of January...that will be cool to see.

Not much else to get excited about. I am sure I'll be alone at the end of 2008. No one but God will ever love me unconditionally ever again. (OMG the person next to me at the library stinks!)

Wooooo, Wooooo......I Survived Christmas!

Yeah, it's over. Another friggen Christmas, I'll never celebrate it again...ever!

Now let's see what January 2008 brings.........."Bring it on!"

I have got two doctor appointments the first week. I get to find out what the searing pain in my right hip is all about......tumor? Arthritis spreading? I don't know or care. Death by medical inaction? LOL

I sure would like to get my money for the car I sold back in July 3, 2007. I don't understand why it takes so long for the legal system to work...they got my car and was returned the money paid to me by PayPal. I have no car or money.......I say they owe me my money...what's to discuss?

Oh well, the old fart I built a house for owed my $18,500 without interest from 1985.........he never paid, and now he is dead. I'll never get that money either.

Oh well, forget the past, it just pisses me off. Back to the future!

Santa is Coming.....Or Not!

OMG, no presents, no debt, no family, no pressure! Aahhhhhhhhhhh. Holidays are bah humbug!

Once my kids were over five years old, I always hated the Holidays. They are now 35, 32,& 23. So, it has sucked for some time now! No matter how hard I worked, how hard I tried, what ever I bought.......it was never good enough! Talk about an ungrateful lot! I surely do not miss that at all. I'd rather be homeless and live on the streets than be around my family, ever again!

Strangers treat me better! Public & social services treat me better! Oh well, Santa may be coming, but not anywhere near me!

Bah humbug!

Thank You...???

OK, I get annoyed real easily by people cutting into lines, when everyone else has been waiting..sometimes in the rain, for 30 minutes. I call them on it, each and every time, no matter who it is, or how big they are....What are they gonna do, kill me?,

So the guys are waining at the day shelter for the 6 computers.....I am #5 in line....and after waiting in line for 20+ minutes, these two yoyos push their way up the stairs ahead of me and several others. So I say, "Hey dude, it's who is in line downstairs, and not who gets up the stairs first." He moved off.

When I get back to the shelter last night, this black dude says, "Thank you." I ask what he is talking about and he says it's for straightening out that dude cutting in line. Yeah, OK.

I hate being the "Rude" police, but someone has to!

Seperate But Equal

Yeah, here we go again. I put out a bunch or crackers, cheese, sausage, and hot mustard to share with the guys in the shelter, go to the bathroom, and come back....it's all gone. Here is this black dude with all of it!

I fumed for a few minutes, but just can't keep quiet. I told him that was for everyone, not just for him. He starts giving me crap, but I told him that was my stuff I put out to share. Screw him!

I have never seen such rude people....so bent on "getting their share", like they don't eat, or someone owes them! BS, I don't owe them jack!

No other minority acts like this, only friggen blacks. They are only 7% of the population...but compose 40% of the shelter, 50% of the homeless, 75% of the crime....like the bunch standing on my street corner every night selling dope!

Unlike other minorities, they refuse to integrate into American society. They want their own society, separate but equal to whites. I say give it to them. Make the old Confederate States, the African-America. Ship them all there from all the other major cities! Screw this crap!

OInk, Oink! Here Piggy, Piggy!

Talk about the food pig out of the month. The St. Pius Catholic Church brought supper to the shelter last night.

OMG, cheeseburgers & all the fixings, meatloaf, sirloin tips & rice, Tatar tots, lasagna, beanie weenies, brats, fruit, cake, and milk. Oink, oink.

Almost fell off my top bunk last night, damn that's gonna hurt!

Grey overcast, the five days of rain starts tonight......but, hey it's not a North Easter with 12" of friggen snow!

No drama so far today, but the day is still young.

It's Chinatown

I woke up, at 6:45, to the police outside the shelter (three cars) searching for someone with a gun!

Then last night at 9:30, the fire alarm goes off and we all have to leave the building for 20 minutes. There was a very poor response...took 10 minutes for a fire truck to show up, with only two firemen, no police cars, or ambulance. We figured they didn't care about the homeless shelter. Uh Huh.

No drama today, but I have "chores" today and tomorrow...I am the shower/clothes wash monitor for the street people. No latex gloves required!

Click, Clack, Click, Clack...Reindeer? No!

The sounds of silence is broken by the clitter clatter of spiked shoes!

Unlike Michigan and certainly, unlike Colorado, women don't wear athletic shoes or hiking boots 24/7 here in the Northwest. Nope it's high fasion and high heels!

College age girls, particularly the cute Asian chicks, who all look like they came out of a Manga novel, wear 4" heels on an everyday basis. Those hard heels click-click on the wood and granite floors of libraries, office buildings, and the sidewalk. Even in the constant rain they wear them, some are metallic, open toed, and not very warm or practical. But, they look soooo good!

One day in the cold poreing rain, waiting for the Trolly, this young lady had on silver metallic shoes with a 2" heel and open toes. I told her they were very fashionable, but not very practicle. She just sighed and wiggled her painted toes.

Except for the annoying noise, it is a treat to see women look like women, instead of them wearing jeans and Nike shoes to work and play!

Trannies, manual or automatic? NOT!

OH, have I mentioned in the past the number of transvesites here? And I mean the dress wearing, purse swinging kind.

At least two never change their clothes....ever! Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

They are all kind of bitchy too. What's that about?

And, I think at least two of the women, have a penis! Uh Huh. As I gaze out the window, here she/he comes!

Fear This....."La Raza"!

OK, first I read this in the paper a few weeks ago, then I heard some blacks on the street corner at 2:30 AM, waiting for a bus, talking about it. Latinos in Los Angeles are targeting (killing) blacks, aka, "African-Americans"...and blacks are afraid!

This is perhaps one reason the blacks in the Pacific Northwest are so "in your face" and aggressive toward others. They escaped their death sentence in LA and once again are "the top dog", in their minds, of the local hood.

Federal indictments unsealed on October 16 allege that leaders of the Florenza 13 (F 13s) gang acted on orders from the Mexican Mafia to cleanse their neighborhoods of African-American gang and non-gang members. “The most disturbing aspect is that gang members allegedly engaged in a series of attacks … that extended to innocent citizens who ended up being shot simply because of the color of their skin,” said U.S. Attorney Thomas P. O’Brien.

The news was a bitter pill to black and Latino activists who struggled all year to get law enforcement and city leaders to admit that the rash of racially motivated killings and attacks against African-Americans and their Latino supporters is part of a larger and chilling plot – a highly organized effort by the Mexican Mafia (La Eme) to cleanse the many neighborhoods they control of their black population.
http://www.lacitybeat.com/article.php?id=6457&IssueNum=231

I find this a viable explanation, because after living in the Detroit Metro area, local blacks here would be dead in a week back in Michigan, with the posturing they do here in the NW. Obviously LA Latinos don't like blacks. Blacks like no one, and do not respect even their own kind. Bla, bla, bla...generalizations, I know, but unfortunately sometimes, they fit!

In my own personal case, ignoring them, staying out of their way, keeps me out of trouble. I guess if you live in LA, the only thing to do is "flight or fight"! Many have evidently chosen the former. I do wonder though, what would happen if I went into the day shelter, where 40% of the blacks hang out, and yell "La Raza"?

"Forget it, Jake. It's Chinatown "

OK, I have a bed for four months in a shelter...and I live in "Chinatown". Got inside last night, just in time, last night was windy and 28F. Now, it's clear and sunny, but cold...at lest for here. but hey, there is 6" of snow in Colorado Springs, and supposed to snow through Tuesday! Uh Huh.

Lots of rules like no drugs, drinking (even off site), but a slighter better class of people instead of being around belligerent drug addicts, tweakers, crack whores, and meth addicts. Free clothes, showers, nightly meal, and TV, even movies! I have a top bunk back in a dark corner! Perfect for me, I put in my ear plugs, and silence! Only the third time since September 28th, that I have slept inside.

Monday I have an appointment with my "case worker" to expand the apartment search out of downtown, so I can get into someplace "permanent" by New Years! Ho ho ho, to me!